January 31 - Soul Mate

Thought-Random:

That one thought connection with your soul mate
makes for
the profoundness of being alive each day!

"For last year's words belong to last year's language
And next year's words await another voice.
And to make an end is to make a beginning."
~T.S. Eliot

January 30 - On Fire!

Thought-Random:

   

         Fire is like a heartbeat - it is life, rather than destruction!

        While it is true that fire can raze whole communities to the

ground: property, livestock, people .... it is also true that it

can either be that blaze that triggers your resolve into untold

achievement, or simply that gentle flame that keeps the love light

 in your heart burning!

January 29 - Lights on Tanya!

Thought-Random:

        Speak of a particular baby some teen-years ago, cute and sweet and lovely as a doll - that would be Tanya - Eleine, we call her at home. Her smile used to be a sexy pout, could you imagine that?  Well, next imagine looking into her eyes and instead, what will arrest your eyes would be her eyelashes so long they kneel in prayer!

        A sweetheart of many talents, she sings, she dances, she acts on stage, she speaks on stage - she is an award-winning public speaker!  And oh by the way, she still is in college on a full-scholarship wanting to be an engineer and hoping to have her name one day flashed across the movie screens with the credits.  Her academic life isn't only tuition-free, thus, because, too, she works as a resident adviser at her university - already very professional!

        And yet when at home on holidays, like a toddler, she steals some nights to come sleep in my bed sharing some of her love secrets, some of her home problems, some of her life's anxieties. That makes me somebody's favorite, right?  My favorite, though, is when she comes up to me with, 'Let's go watch Skyfall today, then we go Zero Dark Thirty tomorrow and then...., and then.....'! :)  <3, <3, ,3!!!

         

       

January 28 -Everything Happens For a Reason

January 27 - That Virtual Need

Thought-Random:

     
 I need quiet to internalize the thoughts
 projected on virtual paper by
 my online students, true,

 but that touch of thought from a parallel
 dimension does augment my thirst for virtual company

 - very much like mellow background music!

January 26 - Seconds in Starbucks

Thought-Random:

        I'm reading through this account of my student who works with the Military - his account of senseless waste of life in the battlefield.  And as I try to escape the substance of the essay - even if only momentarily - I raise my eyes above my computer and find them instantly locked with another pair of eyes that must have earlier been directed at me. So I stare back in curiosity.  But is he staring at me, this guy? Now, I am undecided if he is.  His eyes don't show the usual intent of uncovering the secrets mine hold - intent that I see in other eyes I've met head on. Bit by bit, I am made to see through the clarity of his light, brown eyes that he simply has laid a gentle gaze on mine and yet, they seemed to be earnestly speaking to me. What are those eyes saying, I ask myself, - those eyes that also are raised above another computer. I try to unravel whatever meaning they carry but I can't.  Well, he isn't yielding, he isn't giving up the gaze and neither do I intend to, but - no, this must end. I drop it and take myself back to my Military student and still trying to evade his account of war, I force myself into the grammatical and stylistic aspects of his essay instead.

January 25 - Mid-winter Episode

Thought-Random:

         Then I come home to someone mowing the lawn.  The smell of freshly cut grass reminds me of twilight in the countryside - the smell of exotic pleasure!  But up the stairs now into the living room, the couch is so inviting  I throw myself on it. The marvelous sensation of my muscles relaxing is at hand - marvelous just after an Aikido class That great feeling of falling asleep next makes me aware of  thoughts floating around my brain - and of the radio music at the background fading into white noise.  Somewhere in the middle of all these, however, a gentle breeze from the open window gives me that refreshing swath of cool over my sweating body.  I could get more of that breeze right now as I get into this  blissful moment of just about entering sleep!  So I turn my eyes to the window as if to reassure myself that it is open enough for my much needed breeze and I am jolted to reality! The windows are closed.  Snow is heavily beating against the window pane, and somebody had thrown a blanket over me for warmth! Was that all a dream?  Or was it wistful thinking!